Here is something I read on Facebook.
I don’t really know how to describe today. Ten years ago, I walked away from Planned Parenthood. One year ago today, I lost a baby through miscarriage. So, happiness mixed with grief.
And I guess that’s the way my adult life has always been and will always continue to be. Life mixed with loss.
Ten years have gone by quickly. This last year has been the most difficult of the ten. The movie release has been a whirlwind of ups and downs, mostly ups. Yet I’m left with this nagging sense of loss, in the midst of excitement and celebration.
The past ten years have brought me the best friends of my life…lifelong friends. Those years have also shown me that most people lack loyalty and respect for one another. These years have brought me 7 more children…a life gifted to us by adoption, and a marriage that can truly weather any storm. In those ten years, a ministry was birthed for abortion clinic workers, And Then There Were None – Prolife Outreach.
I have lived the past 10 years constantly “on watch.” My husband always says that I’m a workaholic, and that may be true. I’m always wondering, “What if?” What if I had stayed up a little bit longer answering emails? What if I had taken just one more speaking engagement this month? What if I had donated more money to this prolife group? What if…? What if I could have done something to save more? I can’t turn that off, this feeling of heaviness…like every child aborted could have been saved if I had done just a little bit more.
Ten years out and I see myself as more and more ordinary day by day. I’m not a hero. I left a job where I facilitated the deaths of innocent children. I just did what was right because what I had been doing was so incredibly evil.
But for all of you who have been on this journey with me for these past ten years, thank you. Thank you all for keeping me and my family in your prayers. Thank you for supporting all of my crazy efforts to make abortion unthinkable.
And to the prolifers who stood with me ten years ago today, Shawn Carney, David Bereit, Heather Gardner, Karen Herzog, And Bobby Reynoso, you are really my heroes. You didn’t have to accept me. You didn’t have to believe me. But you did. You became the people that I didn’t even know I needed. ❤️