Falling into sin
Here is something I read on Facebook.
Falling into sin
by Joshua Arnold
Falling into sin at times during my walk has been one of the most miserable experiences of my life. I abhor it, and can’t believe how much carnality is settled at the bottom of my heart, never going noticed until I am hit and shook, and suddenly all of that sediment at the bottom of my heart clouds the whole heart like a glass that had muck at the bottom, and then clouds all the water after it is shaken. I see all that hidden sin that never showed itself when everything was going smooth.
But God has permitted me to fail miserably so many times in order to show me that Jesus Christ is my only hope.
I know I must struggle with spiritual pride, but I can’t imagine the amount of spiritual pride I would have if I never fell into sin. I have gained ground on the sin of spiritual pride by being humbled by falling into another sin.
I know I must struggle with lacking sympathy, but I can’t tell you how much more sympathetic and understanding I am from having fallen into particular sins. The Lord humbled me by permitting these things.
I remember in the beginning of my walk with Christ, I would hear of people backsliding, and I would sincerely think “how is that even possible?!”
I thought they must have just not been as zealous as me. They must have not wanted it as bad as me.
But then the Lord permitted me to backslide. And now my immediate reaction when I hear of a brother or sister backsliding is a sympathetic response. The reaction that always, always, always follows is “that can happen to me. Lord please keep me!”
I know now that it is by grace alone that I stand, and not my zeal, wisdom, knowledge, or anything else. Our God has been so good to me. He has shown me my wickedness so that I will realize how weak I am. And when I am weak, the Lord loves to display His strength. Praise the Lord!